Thursday, October 2, 2014

How to avoid losing and gaining the same weight

As a trainer and healthy lifestyle writer and advocate I really, REALLY dislike yo-yo dieting, inconsistent lifestyles etc...
I don't believe anyone can keep up with a "Perfectly" balanced life for very long and we don't need to. Restriction leads to feelings of deprivation and ultimately excessive reactions--binging, overeating, a 180 back to old habits.

A healthy life has an ebb and flow, it has a rhythm, that creates a melody flowing through out. We eat healthy, workout, work hard, we eat what we love, sometimes we treat ourselves, we operate away from denying ourselves what our bodies need, but will be in control of what our bodies crave. We are fit, we run, lift, dance, move, plié, clean, press, cook, work, and ROCK at playing out the unique melody of our lives. Every day different, every note different, all the same opus.

What happens when we lose the ebb and flow, when the flow wont GO and our routines get stopped up. What happens when our weight creeps up, when we excuse it away and become the person that is focusing on those same 10# every other 6 months or so?? How do we break out of that?

from fat to fit, to figure...but then what?
Then what was weight gain. The picture on the left is the February after my 2nd figure show. I did 2 back to back in 2012, then got married and felt like a yo-yo dieter. Look at the picture of me, in my pink figure suit, I was the lowest weight ever. In my LIFE. In the one in my bra above, I was 8-9lbs over my normal body weight, the one I had  been sustaining post weight watchers, from eating clean and from lifting.

This happened again in 2013. My weight drops for two figure shows (not as low) and coming off those shows, I hit, Halloween, thanksgiving, Christmas. I hit 9-10lbs OVER MY NORMAL weight again.

Here I was (AM)a weight loss success story my weight fluctuating every 6 months by as much as 12-15lbs!

I felt undisciplined, I felt ashamed, I felt like I was a total amateur, that I had let the holidays get the best of me, the "treat" meals happen too much. The truth was a little of all of that. Save for the shame, that was NOT a healthy feeling...a little healthy guilt will keep you in check, but SHAME is from the enemy!!  I was (AM) human and when I dieted for a show, I did go overboard afterwards. Where was the ebb and flow, in that, the melody?? I felt like it was drowned out, by either the sharp hard percussion of the figure show or floating head barely above the water to the soothing woodwinds of comfort foods, holidays and feeling immune to JUNK FOOD because well, I was a trainer, a COMPETITOR. (HEAD HELD HIGH--that's a sign, pride comes before a fall).

Ways to avoid the all or nothing, the YO-YO life we sometimes experience.
1) YOU ARE HUMAN. Have a treat. Treat the treat like a special moment, done in moderation. It's like fire. One candle is pretty, but it can burn your house down. Respect the treat. But be human. Show grace to yourself when you get burned and just keep going.

2) There is ALWAYS time. Don't stress and go all or nothing to lose that last 10lbs. Take it one pound at a time, enjoy the process. There is also always cupcakes, they are in every store everywhere. You don't have to eat the free ones at the office. There is always cardio to do, a walk, a run, a stairmaster session. ALWAYS make time for cupcakes and cardio, cardio more than the first.
3) Eat real food. Eat carbs, just eat the right ones. Don't freak out too much about it. Eat real food, not food products. Food "products" (processed foods) give us that little belly fat that we find pushing over our jeans. Its the nachos, the ice cream, the bagels, the sunchips. Go for green, gold, blue, red and yellow. Produce doesn't have a label to read. that's a win.
4) You can do anything for ____ amount of time. From my roller derby days. When I was a jammer, it was 2 minutes of hard skating, getting blocked (HARD) by girls (some big girls) whose only goal was to see you splattered on the ground. Sometimes it was over fast, often it went the whole 2 minutes. There is NOTHING like having to push through the pack, get up, get up, push, sprint, sprint more, get up more for 2 min, but it's only 2 min (2 weeks, 30 min, 21 days, 26 miles) and what ever the time frame is, you can do it. Just go 2 more min. Its not that bad.

5)Reverse diet. When you do a show or a photo shoot or something that you get SUPER lean for (not a goal like wedding or reunion, get fit for that and STAY FIT!!), come off it by slowly, SLOWLY adding some normal foods back in. Food--like real food. And just reverse the strictness of it, stick with the workout routines and you should be good.
6) Have a tipping point. Like a pair of pants, a number on the scale etc and when you hit that or creep to the edge of it, don't peek over, turn and run, throw the cupcake down and FLEE!! You can do it.
DEAD LIFT Article:
Wow, thank you to Jason and Brad at Faith & Fitness magazine for asking me to be one of FOUR contributors to the great article on one of my FAVE moves--the deadlift! The link is below, like, share, read comment and LIFT!  

Friday, September 19, 2014

Faith and Fat Loss Challenge, APPLICATION and prayer

It's Friday night and I am glad. 
I have had a week of work, work, workouts, projects and MORE. ALL good things, all BIG blessings being showered on me, but I am ready for an early night in bed and a little ME time with a book or movie. My workouts have been spot on this week. Fasted cardio, even on my day off, lifting (legs twice--score!!) and my diet is yielding results. Here's a shameless selfie after my workouts and breakfast, RIGHT before my LUNCH-NOM! 

My abs look better from the side, my waist isn't too narrow. 

It was suggested to me by a coworker that I eat a few more carbs. I had dropped the amount of my rice and my oats and I think I did it in the name of "cutting calories" and I know better. They suggested to that fasted cardio take precedence. and that I do 20 min AFTER my weights workouts.

Knowing is not enough, we must apply, willing is not enough, we must DO. -Bruce Lee

It was when I APPLIED what he suggested (I somehow knew it, I did, and I used to do it even) that I started seeing some different results again. SO many times in life, we have the knowledge, we KNOW it inside out, up and down, we read books on it, share articles on FB, we maybe even TEACH it. But do we KNOW it in our daily walk? Do we practice, do we embrace it as habit, lifestyle? 

I KNOW that cardio is essential for leanness. 
I know slashing calories is detrimental. 
I know reading the bible daily will encourage my heart. 
I know real food is better than fake. 
I know that God loves me.
I know that if there is a treat in my house, I WILL end up eating some. 
I know nutrition is 100% and fitness is 100% 
I know that spending time with my family is more important. 
I know, I know, I KNOW.... 

Do I apply? 

THE BIBLE says in proverbs: 

Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.

I think we can have lots of knowledge, but wisdom--understanding--comes with Application. We apply, we test these things to be true, we KNOW and then we apply.  

Wisdom is the right use of knowledge. To know is not to be wise. Many men know a great deal, and are all the greater fools for it. There is no fool so great a fool as a knowing fool. But to know how to use knowledge is to have wisdom.  ~ Charles Spurgeon

FAITH AND FAT LOSS 21 Day challenge 
Natural Bodybuilder Ron Williams and I will be running an online group jump starting NEW habits for 21days and for only 21$ Each participant will receive a Faith & Fat loss workbook, daily support scriptures, posts, videos etc on our private FB group and MORE! Message me on FB or email Mary at Fit this girl dot com for details  and to take part! 

1st Phorm Athlete Search:

I usually pray, think and talk to God when I lift. I love pushing myself to the limit and having an encounter with the Almighty who pushes me also. I grind, I pray, I want to be humble in the gym, I want to be humble in all I do. It means letting my heart be soft to what God pushes me to do. It means being transparent when I don't have the answers. Praying all the time, letting HIM show me where I need work, he is transforming me on the inside as I work on the outside. 

I am excited too, If you follow me on Instagram, you will know I am in a contest to be a spokes person for 1ST Phorm supplements. As far as I know, its not the kind of contest you can vote for or push other than use HASHTAGS to have the 1ST Phorm people see you, see who you are and see your motivation for others and the healthy lifestyle. Wish me luck! Happy Weekend!

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Supplements: SEVEN of the best for beginners

WHAT a great couple weeks its been. Life has been throwing me surprises and curve balls in a good way. Life ebbs and flows, seasons of highs and lows, favor and sometimes hardships.  

God is always showing us favor, even when we face hardships, his favor keeps our heads on straight and our feet on his path till we see daybreak again. 

REMINDER: Galatians 6:4 tells us to do our OWN work, do it well, and not compare ourselves to others. REMINDER TAKEN. It's definitely one I need. I have been reminded lately though too of how far I have come. It's a healthy thing for me to see my journey, my progress, and be THANKFUL for my own work done well. When I thank God for his favor, for my progress, well... there is just MORE and more for me to be thankful for. 


SO many questions I get from readers and clients surround supplements. What to take, when to take them, how much, how long? You should ALWAYS get advice from a knowledgeable source and usually one who practices what they preach. (people who are fit, people who lift :) )

HERE are a few of the basics, all of which I take, these are the brands I am currently using as well

7. BCAA, Branch Chain Amino Acids
Most BCAA's you buy will be powder form and will contain a number of "essential" amino acids-- meaning we don't produce them, so we need to get them in our diet. Using BCAA pre and post workout (including cardio) help to preserve your lean muscle mass as you work out. It reduces the muscle damage and aids in protein synthesis.  I take BCAA's during and after fasted cardio, during a lifting session and often when I will be without food for more than 3 hours (ie: meetings, road trips, clients all day) 

6. CLA:  
Conjugated linoleic acid is a naturally occurring fatty acid (found in dairy and red meats) and is known to help reduce body fat deposits, boost metabolism and improve overall immune function. If you ask someone at a nutrition store, they will tell you it will help you "tone." In COMBINATION with weight training, CLA is a gem for lean muscle gain and fat loss, I take it at night and right away in the morning for the best results.  

Glutamine is an Amino Acid that aids in muscle recovery and soreness, however, it's also amazing for muscle soreness for MORE than just your workouts. YARD work, long runs, etc... and I know plenty of people who take glutamine for SMOOTH muscle recovery as well. My mother being one, she has digestive issues and in combination with food combining, glutamine is strengthening her stomach lining and improving her life! USUALLY  a whey protein powder will have glutamine in it, this is in addition on those HEAVY lift days or if you have another need for it! 

4. Calcium Magnesium: Natural Calm
I take natural calm nightly. I started taking it about 2 years ago when I was having trouble sleeping. It turned out to be so much more than that: 

Magnesium and calcium are fundamental nutrients that need to be in balance with each other in order for you to fully experience good health. Their importance on a cellular level is critical. Calcium and magnesium are like opposite sides of a coin. Calcium excites nerves, while magnesium calms them down. Calcium makes muscles contract. Magnesium is necessary for muscles to relax. Calcium is needed for blood clotting, but magnesium keeps the blood flowing freely. 

READ more here:

Omega-3 fatty acids help lower an individual’s risk for heart attack, stroke, certain cancers, depression and overall inflammation. The Omega 3's in Krill Oil are extracted at the BOTTOM of the food chain and not from fish exposed to other toxins or farmed fish. Joint health, heart heath and workout recovery make Krill Oil my new favorite. I am taking 1000MG daily! 

2. MULTI-Vitamin
GNC Women's Ultra Mega 

It's a no-brainer to take a multi-vitamin, GNC's are all natural, non synthetic. Ever felt sick to your tummy after taking your vitamin? Yeah, that's because 98% are synthetic and that inhibits absorption and breakdown. They are time-released to. NUF said. 

1. THE BIG GUNS, THE #1, Numero UNO of supplements: 

You want a WHEY ISOLATE Protein. Many are simply labeled WHEY, but when you look it's a whey BLEND. The first few ingredients read: Whey Protein Concentrate, Whey Protein isolate. This will take at least an hour to fully absorb/digest in your system=NO GOOD. The whey CONCENTRATE slows down the process. The Whey Isolate, or better yet, Hydrolyzed isolate absorb much faster and you get MORE of the actual protein. absorb in about 10 min. High cholesterol content will block protein absorption, with most Isolates you wont have that.   Aim for low carb, low sugar, low fat, low cholesterol and steer CLEAR of soy protein. Soy mimics estrogen (a FAT storing hormone) and decreases testosterone ( muscle building) so drinking a soy "protein" shake will defeat it's purpose. Dymatize ISO is my #1 choice, GNC Wheybolic my second. 
TAKE 1 scoop/serving with in 30 min of a weights/resistance training program to bring protein/sugars and recovery to your muscles. Not just from that workout, but to replenish glycogen stores so your NEXT workout is better, stronger! You can also take an additional scoop during the day as a snack to help you reach your 800-100 and higher protein goals. Whey Isolate promotes weight loss and increase in lean muscle mass. And this brand has PHENOMENAL flavors. 

REMEMBER supplements do just that, they supplement an already HEALTHY, clean diet. They are not meal replacements or a way to cut corners, they will not work unless your healthy and working hard already. Good Luck! Happy SUPPING! 

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Best Self: selfies, joy and grace

I struggle with grace. 
For some reason, I can extend grace to others, but not to myself. On instagram (@maryfitthisgirl) I called it "SHOULD-ing" on myself. Regrets, holding things against MYSELF instead of extending grace. SELF is so central these days with self help, self love, SELFIES... it's not bad to do things for self, but one thing we neglect is to extend grace to self. Here is what I wrote that I wanted: 

 (To) Exceed my own perceived potential, 
be an excellent wife and mom, have my 
heart and mind congruent, give God glory, 
be happy and be a healthy person. 

When I do these things, I am quite sure, I will be what I deem my "BEST SELF." It will be different than I was yesterday, hopefully moving forward in grace, knowledge, wisdom (the application of knowledge), love and ACTION. If I find myself staying in the SAME place, I just assume, there is something more to learn. If I move forward,I assume its toward my BEST SELF. If I move backward, I assume that I am neglecting something, something is broken.  

RECENT Selfies prove I teeter between staying where I am and moving foward, like I talked about before, a divine cha-cha: Two  steps forward, every now and again, one steps back. Am i not applying knowledge? Am I not walking in LOVE with others and self? Am I not gaining wisdom, am I not giving and receiving grace? Spiritually, physically all these things go hand in hand. 

Its not about perfection, it's about progress, its the divine CHA-cha, it seems to be what MOST of my blogs are about lately. Interesting and noted for sure. My, your, BEST self is a work in progress, a painting that is a vision in the artists mind, a framework of the eternal, a lesson in patience and in FINDING JOY. 

"No soul that seriously and constantly desires joy will ever miss it. Those who seek find. To those who knock it is opened." CS Lewis

I have a dream, lately I find doubt creeping in, "Do I deserve it? Can I achieve it? Am I good enough, disciplined enough, will I ever be closer or just teeter between dreaming and achieving??"  No matter, BEST SELF is achievable. It's being what you are and what you are not yet. It's embracing that in-between and finding that JOY therein. 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

2014 UPDATE and walking through an open door!

It's been a while
As it seems, my last post about progress, not perfection allowed my heart and mind to take a step back from BUSY and just proceed to drink in a summer of changes at home, in my job and in my perspective. All good things, I assure you. 

Here's a QUICK rundown of the new items: 
  • We got a dog, Rascal 
  • I am NEARLY through my first go at the 12 steps of Celebrate recovery 
  • I have learned that I have a GARDENERS heart 
  • I have upped (as I said I would) my modeling
  • I got a new job at a boutique gym close to home
  • I have kept lifting, gained muscle
  • Mack and I have continued to work on our marriage, we celebrated 2 years in June (yay!!) 

There have been ups and downs, that is for sure. I haven't blogged since February...what HAPPENED?? Well, its simple...I let some business fall to the wayside as I let other priorities step forward. 

Marriage is GOOD, but it has been a challenge. We have communication struggles, we sought wise council (separate, together etc..) and because of all of that, rocky as the high road has been, I tend to isolate. People in recovery can do this when they face trials. I didn't stop going to church or doing my 12 steps, I didn't lose myself in pints of ice cream and buckets of chicken, "Fit this, Girl" stayed silent and I learned the art of landscaping and gardening. The healthiest avoidance tactic I have ever used. And as I dig in the dirt, watch some things bloom and some things wither, watch some thrive and some struggle, I KNOW that when I water, cultivate and keep the conditions right in my marriage, it will bloom year after year, better and brighter than the last, that motivates me. Keep going, keep weeding, keep watering, keep being kind, when its hard, when its sunny, when it's stormy. It will be worth it soon... 

Oh the 12 steps...I have to say, right now, in 3 groups at church, 2 for recovery, I am nearly sick of self work!! Thank GOD that I can rely on GRACE then and not works, lists, white knuckling it, but surrender and show up. When I show up, God will work in me, when I prepare my heart for change, he will step up and bring me chances to surrender self and bit by bit, see change. But what a process, it's nearly overwhelming. 

Enter Puppy: Oh, he's a rascal and now free time is spent walking, fetching and as soon as he's old enough, running! He's a Shepard, so he has as much energy as I do, minus the caffeine. 

I have done more modeling, once for a commercial for MN Tourism, a few runway shows and a pinup shoot potentially for a calendar. It's been a learning experience. I am not a runway model, but will need to walk a runway in December for AMTC, so all the practice I can get is GREAT. 

And my new job! It is at a sweet boutique gym near my house, I am going to love it. My co-workers are nice and knowledgeable and I am enjoying my clients so far... has it ever been otherwise? Not for me, I have been walking in Favor since I became a trainer four plus years ago. 

Can you BELIEVE it?? This summer was 5 years a blogger, 4 a trainer and 2 a competitor. Life is so sweet... 

Rascal and updated Family picture: 

Walking through an open door: 
I have struggled a bit this summer with my "off season" look... 
meaning, I was looking like I was on OFF season, when I don't WANT to look like that, nor do I believe that. Last figure show I did was October 2013 and as it often seems to fall, holidays follow as does weight gain for me and a look of OFF season. If it's a lifestyle, I shouldn't yo-yo (10 lbs) like I do. But I have been doing fasted cardio, working hard and really keeping my food in check. 

When an opportunity came to me, to audition for an ADIDAS print add for a "fit runner" I hemmed and hawed about it. Was I FIT? Was I fit ENOUGH?? In October yeah, but NOW? NO. But at the last minute, I submitted my name. The slots were full. I felt relieved, I was CERTAIN I would show up and be embarrassed. 

I shared this with the woman at the modeling agency and she quickly said that I WAS indeed fit enough, that competitors usually have a skewed view of what "fit" is... I did indeed. And I passed up an open door that I let my skewed self image see as a doorway to embarrassment or ridicule. 

Not again, I will from this point, walk through any open door that's within God's will for my life. I will take chances, I will leap, I will stick my neck out, I will HUSTLE, I will submit and surrender and let GOD decide how to use me, where to use me. That's the bottom line from now on. I will walk through the open doors. 

Last week progress pic at 124 lbs
who decides what is fit, 
fit enough and ripped? 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Imperfect Progress: Embracing what IS!

I am not perfect. 
Sometimes I fall down. 
Sometimes I let things get the best of me. 
Sometimes STILL I eat to control, I don't work to my potential, sometimes STILL feel a step behind. 

It's not about perfection: its about progress. 
Do not forget how far you have come. 

I was 162 pounds at my highest. I went through many different ways to eat and fuel my workouts over the past 8 years: everything from weight watchers to a competition diet. And today, I am just UNDER my weight watchers goal weight. But that is a little high for me. 

I feel like I eat when I am out of control: Sad, busy, frustrated, confused, tired. And not always "BAD" foods (God help us get good and bad foods off the table. Food is nutritionally dense or it is not. Period.) After doing 2 Figure shows in 2013 and being on a scheduled eating plan from February to October, I enjoyed the last few months, stayed off the scale and ate about 60% like my normal healthy self. The other 40 needed time off, enjoyed the holidays and strayed a bit. 

Here's a look at my journey: 

Overweight, to runner(again) to clean eater 


Competitor, aspiring model and close to today, up about 8 pounds 

Here is my point: I have made A LOT of progress. My journey has been one of SUCCESS. 

It's been 8+ years of Imperfect Progress (a phrase I am stealing from Lisa Terkeurst). My journey is NOT about never falling. It is like the picture above says, a HOLY CHA-CHA. Filled with sweet steps forward and a few steps back. 

Just keep those feet moving! 

I am constantly changing, maybe up a little, maybe going from a runner to a competitor, and a lean girl to one who gains because she needs a break or even to gain some muscle! It's all progress, it's all forward motion even if some of it looks like falling. 

BESIDES, the bible says that NONE of us will be perfect until King Jesus returns and we are made like HIM! He WILL complete the good works in us! 

Philippians says: "Being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Jesus Christ!" 

Pressing toward the Goal
Philippians 4:12
I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead,  I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us!

So here I am today, a little up, embracing what is, moving forward with my imperfect progress in faith, fitness and health! Onward and upward! 

Where are you on your journey? Do you feel pressed to be perfect? 

Monday, February 3, 2014

A new kind of vision board for 2014

Do you ever feel like God has been speaking to you, but then what he says doesn't happen...oh say for a long time? Or when you think it should or will? 

Do you ever hear God speak and it's shortened version of the telephone game and you interpret it how you want, hear what you want? 

This past year, 2013, I heard God say, this was the YEAR! Oh man, was my imagination FLYING with that. YES, my year, its MY YEAR! Take first in a show, get a sponsor, do this, do THAT with flying colors and fanfare. Um. No. He said it was the year. Not MY year.(Interpretation one, Mary zero)

So, when 2014 turned the corner, my vision board took a new turn as well. First, it was the first ever that my husband and I did together, with some of our marriage goals and visions on it. 

Second, it isn't crammed full of magazine pics of things I want, things I want to do, habits to create, bodies to emulate, places to go. It's simplified. Clarity is key. I don't need to SEE my desires, I need to see WHOM I desire. I have all those dreams and "things" that I would like from this world in my heart and in my sights, but GOD says....

 "Seek the Kingdom of God (his way of operating) above all else and he will give you everything you need!" God also says: "Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart!" 

In seeking him, I will find him. In finding him I will invite his kingdom to come into my world and his love rule. When his love rules, I will delight in him and that love, that peace that passes all and he will give me all I need and all I desire. Does that mean all the material desires I can handle? No, it most likely means all I need to thrive here in this world, mainly his love, peace, grace, his PRESENCE.  And in tasting that, THAT will become my desire more than anything. 

So my board focuses on being 
JESUS centered
Kingdom minded (this world is a short, short dress rehearsal)
GIVING generously from our abundance in him 
having a JOY filled home (Jesus lives here!) 
Sleeping promised 
enjoying my days and my work
do all to CULTIVATE joy
Take care of my body
be single minded as a couple: fit for Christ
being single minded in goals and in word and deed: 
Putting into practice all I talk about. 

A new kind of vision board, one on a white board, so we can add or modify what doesn't fit with our lives and the Lord leads us. And one that is CLEAR in our focus, vision and mission. The details, those other magazine picture oriented goals and dreams, they will come and they will fade. Be THOU my vision. 

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Success Story: Kali Finger

WOW, you guys, this is one of my fave success stories that I have done so far. I use a little app called Instagram and it is SO much fun! I have "met" some really cool people and Kali Finger is one of them. 

She caught my eye when she posted a #Transformation Tuesday picture where she used to be under weight. NOW, she is a healthy weight, with healthy eating habits and loving a balanced life. 

THAT is the best kind of success. I asked Kali to share with me her journey from restricted thinking and eating to balance and health. Talk about finding true freedom and success, her story is below and its amazing. You can follow her on Instagram @kalifinger! (she likes coffee and quest bars, she could be your BFF)

Kali's story : 

I am 19 years old and I have been "struggling" with food issues since I was 13 years old. I was always an active kid and I was NEVER an overweight or a big kid... I just saw myself as "not skinny" so I thought that if I stopped eating as much, but still kept working out like I was that I would become even "skinnier" and be even more happy. 

In high school I was a competitive swimmer and worked out 6 hours a day in the pool.  I  was burning tons of calories. The downside was, I was not nearly consuming enough calories to make my body or myself feel good. I remember counting out 11 pretzel sticks, chewing on gum, or making snacks or meals smaller and smaller so that I was cutting more and more from my diet and overall intake. Truthfully,  I was not even eating healthy food, I was eating empty calories which ultimately left me feeling hungry. I would go to bed before 8pm so that when I felt hungry, at least I was sleeping and would not wake up to go and eat.  

Kali on the left, under eating and over training. 
That was nearly 2 years ago. 
On the right, today, at a healthy and 
happy weight and place in life! 

My lowest weight was at 100 pounds and then my family stopped me before it got too serious. They watched me eat everything and made me eat often, which to me felt like a punishment and of course I didn't want to do it because I worked so hard to get "skinny". 

My parents finally just sat me down and told me that they were too worried about me and that I  had to start eating more, they were afraid that I was going to become really sick. Of course when they convinced me start eating more, I thought "this is too many calories, I'm going to get fat, gain weight." 

But once I slowly started getting used to eating more, I started to feel SO much better and had a ton more energy than ever before. Then I looked into eating more healthy foods, with lots of nutrients and foods that were GOOD for my body. 

Today, I'm a major health nut and I don't deprive myself at all. Food shouldn't be a fear for anyone, it should be something that we can enjoy! There are still foods I don't want to eat and will never eat again. My relationship with food is better and I constantly have fruit, veggies or a quest bar with me everywhere I go so I always know I have a healthy go to snack.

Now a days I go to the gym regularly or workout in my basement. I also eat healthy, good for me foods and I eat a lot!  My weight now is higher and healthier and sure it fluctuates a little but never that much. I am gaining muscle which makes me so happy. I love where I am right now and I still constantly think about food and I still NEVER  things that make me feel bad or are bad for me. I want to give my body what it needs, because if you eat crap you will feel like CRAP! Food is supposed to be enjoyed and everyone can enjoy it if you eat the right things! 

I am STRONG and HAPPY and so blessed to be healthy and I look forward to life everyday as it comes! 

Kali lifting at the gym! 

Kali--thank you so much for being open to share your AMAZING transformation and success story.  This is so important to me to share, your finding a healthy balance and coming back from unhealthy, harmful behaviors will speak to so many. 

Guys, we have to keep in mind,  anytime you see someone underweight, we never know why.I know girls who TRY to gain weight and it's a slow journey, but we are all on our own journey. Like someone said once, "we ALL have room to rock" and I think embrace each step we take. 

Breaking out of harmful behaviors, loving your body, giving it GOOD foods and forgiving yourself is a gigantic success. Thanks to Kali for showing us a little of that. 
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