I used to run from fear. I used to hide from it, I used to try and outwit it or cover it up when it came around. But that is because I really used to believe it was true. I let fear come in and take residence in my life because I didn't know who I was. I was always allowing my past failures and experiences to dictate what I felt, what I did and even color who I was. These things kept me in the same place. I didn't move forward--ever. In ANYTHING. I made all kinds of lateral moves that kept me in the same kind of places, situations and same kind of relationships.
I have to take this last paragraph and say that ALL of these things, my proof that fear is just false evidence, my little gadgets and all of the blessings that just chased me down this past 12 months are because from God. It's through his provision, his love and desire to show us that when we turn to HIM and seek him first that he will heap his grace on our lives that I was able to step out in the first place. The more I focus on him, the more he shows up in all my needs and showing me HE is my source.
God is so gracious with me and with all of us despite the fact that we are so undeserving. He loved us first, in our stinking attitudes, our situations, our frustration with life, our FEAR that we just won't let go. He loved us first despite all of that and wants so badly to give us the desires of our hearts and my first desire is Him. I give him all the glory for all I do--I live for him and I run for him!
People will think what they want and I know some people look at my situation and attribute my zeal for my faith over the last year to my new situation and job. But I have to disagree. It was because of my new job, my step of faith that I HAD to turn to my faith and God as my source and only point of trust. It became the focal point of all I do and just took OFF growing by leaps and bounds. It was one of the best things I ever did, step out in faith, step through fear and allow my faith to change my life as I changed careers and focus.