Friday, September 2, 2011
I have a love hate relationship with surprises. I want to be surprise, to be delighted, to open a door, turn a light on and be blown away by a confetti riddled, streamer saturated gigantic surprise. Unless it's not good. Life gives us those surprises where instead of a streamer toting a balloon, it feels like a weight around our neck.
Life isn't all rainbows and pony's, I get it, I experience it. There is a fine line between being positive about what life holds, about living life with Expectancy and HOPE and being realistic about what happens in life and in the world. That's the beautiful part about it--it happens IN the world. The world is separate from our core, our souls, but not our experience. We are here, we are experiencing this all, yet we were made for more. We learn to love the bitter, the sweet, the confusing, the challenges and the people by our sides, yet we should love the one who created us..more than this experience.
NIGHT RUNNING & OUR PATH
When I ran the Ragnar Relay, I got a crash course in night running and in-turn, surprises. It was 4am, I was out there, somewhere in Wisconsin, on a dirt road, running past fields, farms, in the BRIGHT moonlight. It was beautiful and amazing and I wasn't scared at all despite being in the middle of nowhere.
Then, because it had just rained, the fog came. It was not thick, but it was off putting. With my headlamp and the fog, it was hard to see, the light was reflecting ON the fog and I could only see the light and just a few feet in front of me. Any change in the road, a dip, gravel to mud, a drop off the shoulder, all of them were just a few seconds of reaction time before I saw the changes in the road clearly.
But I was ok. My headlamp rocked. Then the road headed into a wooded area. So now there was fog and woods and the bright moon that lit my way before was covered in clouds... it was um... a little unnerving. I mean I had to skip over "Thriller" on my ipod unnerving. I could only really see about 3 or 4 feet in front of me, but I took it step by step and then, like a wall of FOG in the middle of the night, I was STRUCK by this thought:
Often times God doesn't show us the whole path, the whole road in front of us.
Sometimes he just shines a light on what is right before us.
IF he showed us the WHOLE path, we may not want to run it.
IF he showed us the WHOLE road
we may not be able to handle it--good or challenging.
My little headlamp showing me only where my feet needed to go over the next few steps, over the next few critical moves, was like God who directs us to TRUST him and step through what he puts in front of us. TRUST him and say, I know you will keep my feet from slipping, my ankles from turning, I know you will let me run and not be weary.
God knows the whole road, he knows that it is for our GOOD to run it, walk it, follow it, but also knows that for our own good and to cultivate our COMPLETE reliance on him, that OFTEN (not always) a little light is all we need. HE is lighting the way...do you really trust that he has your back? That he will lead you down that road safely, the road that is best for you?
Because in the morning he always shows us the beauty that was around us the whole time.
He causes his light to shine, he causes the moon to reflect the sun, he lights the way with his goodness and his love, he pulls the sun up every morning to warm us. Just because we can't SEE the whole road, doesn't mean it isn't right or beautiful...it's a surprise and we can TRUST that with GOD it is the confetti, streamer, cake and icing kind of surprise.
6am Ragnar Relay, SOMEWHERE in Wisconnie...
Check out this WONDERFUL video about all that God does out of his goodness and love to light the way and reach out to us... And HOLLA, have a GREAT WEEKEND!!!!