Friday, February 7, 2014
I am not perfect.
Sometimes I fall down.
Sometimes I let things get the best of me.
Sometimes STILL I eat to control, I don't work to my potential, sometimes STILL feel a step behind.
It's not about perfection: its about progress.
Do not forget how far you have come.
I was 162 pounds at my highest. I went through many different ways to eat and fuel my workouts over the past 8 years: everything from weight watchers to a competition diet. And today, I am just UNDER my weight watchers goal weight. But that is a little high for me.
I feel like I eat when I am out of control: Sad, busy, frustrated, confused, tired. And not always "BAD" foods (God help us get good and bad foods off the table. Food is nutritionally dense or it is not. Period.) After doing 2 Figure shows in 2013 and being on a scheduled eating plan from February to October, I enjoyed the last few months, stayed off the scale and ate about 60% like my normal healthy self. The other 40 needed time off, enjoyed the holidays and strayed a bit.
Here's a look at my journey:
Overweight, to runner(again) to clean eater
Competitor, aspiring model and close to today, up about 8 pounds
Here is my point: I have made A LOT of progress. My journey has been one of SUCCESS.
It's been 8+ years of Imperfect Progress (a phrase I am stealing from Lisa Terkeurst). My journey is NOT about never falling. It is like the picture above says, a HOLY CHA-CHA. Filled with sweet steps forward and a few steps back.
Just keep those feet moving!
I am constantly changing, maybe up a little, maybe going from a runner to a competitor, and a lean girl to one who gains because she needs a break or even to gain some muscle! It's all progress, it's all forward motion even if some of it looks like falling.
BESIDES, the bible says that NONE of us will be perfect until King Jesus returns and we are made like HIM! He WILL complete the good works in us!
Philippians says: "Being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Jesus Christ!"
Pressing toward the Goal
I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us!
So here I am today, a little up, embracing what is, moving forward with my imperfect progress in faith, fitness and health! Onward and upward!
Where are you on your journey? Do you feel pressed to be perfect?
Monday, February 3, 2014
Do you ever feel like God has been speaking to you, but then what he says doesn't happen...oh say for a long time? Or when you think it should or will?
Do you ever hear God speak and it's shortened version of the telephone game and you interpret it how you want, hear what you want?
This past year, 2013, I heard God say, this was the YEAR! Oh man, was my imagination FLYING with that. YES, my year, its MY YEAR! Take first in a show, get a sponsor, do this, do THAT with flying colors and fanfare. Um. No. He said it was the year. Not MY year.(Interpretation one, Mary zero)
So, when 2014 turned the corner, my vision board took a new turn as well. First, it was the first ever that my husband and I did together, with some of our marriage goals and visions on it.
Second, it isn't crammed full of magazine pics of things I want, things I want to do, habits to create, bodies to emulate, places to go. It's simplified. Clarity is key. I don't need to SEE my desires, I need to see WHOM I desire. I have all those dreams and "things" that I would like from this world in my heart and in my sights, but GOD says....
"Seek the Kingdom of God (his way of operating) above all else and he will give you everything you need!" God also says: "Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart!"
In seeking him, I will find him. In finding him I will invite his kingdom to come into my world and his love rule. When his love rules, I will delight in him and that love, that peace that passes all and he will give me all I need and all I desire. Does that mean all the material desires I can handle? No, it most likely means all I need to thrive here in this world, mainly his love, peace, grace, his PRESENCE. And in tasting that, THAT will become my desire more than anything.
So my board focuses on being
Kingdom minded (this world is a short, short dress rehearsal)
GIVING generously from our abundance in him
having a JOY filled home (Jesus lives here!)
Sleeping sweetly...as promised
enjoying my days and my work
do all to CULTIVATE joy
Take care of my body
be single minded as a couple: fit for Christ
being single minded in goals and in word and deed:
Putting into practice all I talk about.
A new kind of vision board, one on a white board, so we can add or modify what doesn't fit with our lives and the Lord leads us. And one that is CLEAR in our focus, vision and mission. The details, those other magazine picture oriented goals and dreams, they will come and they will fade. Be THOU my vision.